what i did for ownself?

Still Today I am wasting my time, money energy and food in wrong directions.How?Listen,early get up and performed my routine work and doing other works of family,friends,officials works and spoiling our energy for reforming to others.Every day in this way I am increasing my enemies and reducing my friends and well wishers.In true sense I AM NOT WORRIED FOR IMPROVEMENT OF OWN SELF.I am not using my energy for SELF SEARCH.I am not becoming self centered or SELFISH.My whole time is passing in love or hate.One is good and other is bad.Totally I am a worldly person,this will not giving me true peace.I am wondering here and there as a mirage,all efforts are going in wrong way,Now leave the house,family and friends and do the salvation.For this you choose a GURU,and follow his instructions and renounced the worldly attachments and to be detached  and live like the lotus  in the pond.These thoughts are easy to write  but application is very very tough.In the house or in temple you can not devote more time.At present a thought come to my mind that  you should devote some time in social services.Being a physician you  devote some time for the poor and needy people.So after retirement I will do some thing which will give me satisfactions.

Need of Dharma

Now a days I am wasting my time in wrong directions.For example I am writing blogs on politics,comments on general topics etc,for whom.Answer is  for others.I  am not a social worker, reformist,or politician.In true sense I have wasted time,  money ,energy and food in wrong ways.Although what I have written was not futile,it has given me a practice,way of expression,little confidence and TODAY'S experience, that is more important for  me. I am worried for others as for kin and kith's,for friends,relatives,colleagues,and feeling dis satisfactions in own self .Now a question arise what to do?Answer is in your self.What is beneficiary for YOU?.You should be up to some extend become self centered,to improve your energy in good directions,although you have wasted your energy in wrong way,but nothing is wrong or right.Your way of approach  is positive.Now it requires study,meditations,live like lotus in the world.You have passed your golden time in wrong directions, like collecting PAAP(SINS) HINSA, JHHOOTHA,CHORI,KUSHEEL AND PARIGRAHA and KASHAYA(  KRODH,MAAN,MAYA, LOBHA) I have to follow the SAMYAK DARSHAN,SAMYAK GYAN AND SAMYAK CHAARITRA which will lead to MOKSHA-MARG. In writing of these words are very easy but in the practice of these words are very very difficult.Nothing is difficult in the world,because still many many holy persons are  following this path like ACHARYA VIDHYA SAGAR JI MAHARAJ. I am  a follower of HIM since long ALAS wasted whole life for others, others activities holding paaps and kashayas. Actually you are confused person.You concentrate your self in one focal point.It requires devotions,dedications and practice,to become selfish.No body will help you except your self.To adopt less need and limitations or restrictions on your desires.To become introspective and follow strictly.Good thought,good awakening,good vibration and  good luck.GOOD DAY.  

NEED OF DHARMA

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