what i did for ownself?

Still Today I am wasting my time, money energy and food in wrong directions.How?Listen,early get up and performed my routine work and doing other works of family,friends,officials works and spoiling our energy for reforming to others.Every day in this way I am increasing my enemies and reducing my friends and well wishers.In true sense I AM NOT WORRIED FOR IMPROVEMENT OF OWN SELF.I am not using my energy for SELF SEARCH.I am not becoming self centered or SELFISH.My whole time is passing in love or hate.One is good and other is bad.Totally I am a worldly person,this will not giving me true peace.I am wondering here and there as a mirage,all efforts are going in wrong way,Now leave the house,family and friends and do the salvation.For this you choose a GURU,and follow his instructions and renounced the worldly attachments and to be detached  and live like the lotus  in the pond.These thoughts are easy to write  but application is very very tough.In the house or in temple you can not devote more time.At present a thought come to my mind that  you should devote some time in social services.Being a physician you  devote some time for the poor and needy people.So after retirement I will do some thing which will give me satisfactions.